I've done some reading and I am getting a better handle on what is going on with Liz and me.
Basically, Liz is becoming the leader, like the dominating force in our relationship. She is determining more and more of what we do, when we do it.
Now, sometimes this feels crappy but she has gotten very overbearing about it. Liz is an almost... well, she is a perfect girl. Gorgeous, perfect body, smart, creative, independent, sociable, sexual, kinky... everything a guy could ask for. So I am accepting this.
Basically, it's a female led relationship. That's what Liz called it when I talked to her.
"Liz, you've been getting really controlling and demanding recently in our sex lives. Some of it is damn sexy, but some of it makes me feel really bad."
Liz and I were laying in bed together after having fucked. "Yeah, Ethan, I know. It just seems to be natural. Natural for me anyway. It's fun to tell you what to do, and when to do it, and sort of play and tease you. And be honest now, you enjoy it too."
I had to admit she was right. "Yeah, I know. I guess in some ways I do. I mean, the other night with Carlos, and when you have been doing Isabel, there is just something inside me. It feels humiliating, but the humiliation also feels arousing and sexual."
Liz nodded. "And I get off on knowing you are there, watching, frustrated and ashamed. I mean, it literally gets me wet thinking about it."
She was slowly stroking my cock while we were talking. I had already come once, inside her, but she was getting me going again. Also, strangely, the talk about her fucking other people in front of me was turning me on, too.
"See, I think it's become part of our relationship now. My being dominant. It feels right, both sexually and in everyday life. I've read about it, and it's a legit lifestyle. It's called a female led relationship. Basically, the roles are somewhat reversed."
It made sense to me. Liz had taken over a lot of the decision making in everyday life. I don't think I am adapting to it as well as she seems to think, but it was definitely happening.
I sort of agreed with her. "Yeah, I get that. We have to make sure that in big things, in life, like buying a house or jobs, or whatever, that we are still equal partners. But if in our sex play and stuff, you want to take the lead and maybe even control me, I can see that."
Liz was stroking me harder as I said this and my hips were beginning to thrust a bit. She responded, "Well, it's already happened, whether you like it or not. But I am glad you are accepting of the way it will be between us."
I was so aroused by the hand job she was giving me that I just nodded and said, "yeah..." I was in no shape to argue at that point.
Liz continued jerking me off, even applied some lube and I couldn't talk any more, I was distracted and moaning and groaning as she stroked. God, it felt wonderful. Really I felt myself getting ready to cum again, my cock hardening and then just as the muscles began to contract to ejaculate she stopped and just squeezed my cock without stroking.
My cock just sort of bounced a bit, cum came out but wasn't really spurting the way it should, and my orgasm was lost as quickly as it had begun.
"Awww... don't stop.... damn, Liz, I was cumming and you stopped!"
Liz nodded and came up and kissed me. "Yes, Ethan. This is part of what it means to be in a female controlled relationship. I also decide when I want you to cum, and when I don't. And if I want to tease you by bringing you to the edge, I will. If I want to tease you by making you watch another cock enter me, then I will. And the fact that you won't be able to do a thing about it, is what makes it so satisfying."
She kiss me again. "For both of us."
She got out of bed and took a shower.
So it is official, I guess. Liz and I are in a female led relationship. From my reading, some of them get sort of extreme. Ours won't be like that, and I hope overall I will be able to enjoy it.
I never expected things to be this way, but here I am.
