She has sex as she pleases, and thinks it is OK as long as I am there.
I can't participate, but I can watch.
It does turn me on. It hurts inside, it humiliates me to have a girlfriend that loves to fuck other people and most especially, loves to fuck them in front of me. But something about the humiliation turns me on.
I am always hard when I watch her.
She had a threesome with two other girls. Gorgeous girls. Well, Liz is gorgeous, and she attracts the best looking men and women. Not like me. I am lucky to just have someone as gorgeous as Liz as my fiance.
So I watched her play with these two other girls, one blonde, one brunette. I watched from my chair as they spread their legs so I could get a good view of their cunts. I watched, helpless, as she ate the cunts out, and as she had both girls between her legs, arching her back, moaning and screaming in sexual ecstasy.
When it was over I thought to myself,
if she does this, I should be able to do it too.
Right? She plays with girls, but I don't get to. She won't let me near them.
There's this girl at the coffee shop I see sometimes, she's pretty cute, not as pretty as Liz but she has a really good body. Her name is Kimmi. She's kinda shy but seems to like me. So I hit her up the other day. Bought her coffee and sat and talked with her. We decided to get together for coffee the next day, and it was really nice.
We got together for drinks last night. Me and Kimmi. No Liz. Liz didn't know anything about Kimmi.
We got pretty drunk, and were touching each other and I kissed her in the bar, and she kissed back and before you knew it, we were at her place with our clothes off and her arms and legs wrapped around me.
Yeah, I know, I have a girlfriend, but our relationship has been really open to other people.
And you know something? I hadn't been inside Liz in
three weeks. I'd watched Isabel with her tongue inside Liz, and I'd even seen Carlos, my boss, with his cock inside Liz. That was really hard to watch. But me??? No. I needed to be inside.
So we fucked. What can I say, Kimmi was actually a pretty good fuck. My cock slid into her so smooth, and she moved her hips around, and back and forth, grinding on me. Her boobs dangled down on my chest, and her lips were sweet, man... I came inside her. Twice. Once with her on top, once with Kimmi on her side, one leg up and over me.
But I made the mistake of telling Liz tonight. She got really angry. I got angry too, she's been fucking around, why does she have anything to complain about? We had this huge fight, and she was yelling at me, telling me I needed to learn the rules and she wasn't about to tolerate my fucking around and disrespecting her.
Her point was that she was having sex with others with my full knowledge. That I knew when she took someone into her bed, and in fact watched most of the time. I had gone behind her back, which was completely different.
Yeah, it's true. It wasn't like I meant to cheat, but it was just a thing of opportunity, you know? We were out, we got drunk, and we ended in bed.
So Liz has been threatening things. She asked me tonight if my cock was hers, if my body was hers. That we were getting married, and that she should be able to trust it, that we should be able to say she owned it.
I don't know what she means, but yeah. OK. She gets to own my cock. It sort of felt sexy saying that, actually. Like, I was giving up some control and she was going to be more in control. That feels good.
Though I dunno what she is gonna do. She's been on the computer all night, looking at stuff she won't tell me about. She has some sort of plan to get back at me.
