I'm pretty much healed now. It was touch and go for a while and I am glad we went to the hospital and had it finished off properly.
Being without testicles has made me feel so free-- I don't have to wear the dumb chastity cage (it wouldn't work if we tried) and I can actually have sex again!
I've let my hair grow long now and wear women's clothes all the time. We donated my last men's clothes to goodwill a couple of weeks ago, and my underwear went in the trash. All I wear is frilly, girly clothes now. I think I looked more girly (though not prettier) than Liz!
I'm pretty much a full time house maid and day care now. That's my job. Our daughter calls me "Evelyn" and has no idea I was ever a man.
I still have my cock though, which is great! When I finally healed, I discovered I could masturbate and started stroking myself several times a day. It feels so good to be all dressed in my sexiest girl clothing and pull out my cock and stroke until I feel the spasms and the pleasure and then a bunch of creamy cum spurts out...
I've been on hormones since long before my castration (Liz started me on them before I even knew about it). As a result I have gotten breasts, and some pretty good ones. My skin is smoother and I don't have hair like I used to.
I just feel... so... feminine, you know?
Liz bought me a fleshlight to help with masturbation. I love that thing.
Liz won't let me fuck her, of course. I don't think she will ever let me inside of her again. But she has really eased off on letting me get off on my own. The fleshlight is really cool to play with.
One thing I have noticed since losing my balls is that my jizz is not as white. I tends to be clearer, and not as thick.
Oh-- I've gotten slimmer, too. You know, I think there are two things going on in my body-- the hormones Liz has been feeding me, and the lack of male hormones from my testicles. I think over all my body has gotten sexier and prettier and smoother, and I really love my new breasts.
One thing I have noticed though. It is more difficult to get an erection. Now, it's been a year and half, maybe two years since I really had free access to my cock; I've been locked up most of that time. So I can't completely remember. But it seems like it was easier to get hard when I first met Liz. I mean, I remember getting hard just sitting in a restaurant, looking at her.
Now I have to stroke myself, work at it a bit, then the erection comes.
Once I get the erection it feels really good. I like the way I look, with my body, my hair, my breasts, and my hard cock standing up.
As far as Liz is concerned I am her maid and her slut. I am her maid because I clean house, do laundry, take care of our daughter. I am her slut because she uses me with her studs. I am her stud's playthings.
It's true, while I don't get to touch Liz at all, I do get fucked a lot by her guy friends she has over all the time. They find me attractive, which is sexy in itself.
Jason loves the idea of getting ass fucked by a girl with a cock. He comes over to play, and half the time he tells Liz he wants me to come over and fuck him. He lays on his back and lifts his legs like a girl and I fuck him.
He loves to play with my breasts, but when he is ready to cum I just pound away inside him and her jerks off looking at my pretty face.
I don't get inside a cunt any more. Liz is the only girl around. I am not allowed to play with the girls she has over, except for Megan... that is so fucking amazing. Megan is a cute blond, younger than Liz. Sort of a toy for Liz.
Liz likes the guys better, but she does like variety and when Megan is over, sometimes... sometimes I get to join in. Megan gets a kick out of having sex with a girl that has a dick. She can make me cum so easily. I had totally forgotten what it was like being inside a girl while Liz had me in chastity. Since losing my balls and developing breasts, I am getting so much sex it's almost like I am Liz's whore.
Huh... I am, in a way. Her slut for sure. Whore... maybe.
But most of the time I am her guy's plaything.
Each one has something different they like doing to me. For example, Carlos comes over and fucks my ass, while I am on all fours. Carlos is my ex-boss, and the father of my daughter. Um... Liz's daughter.
Yeah. Carlos comes for Liz, but a lot of the time he will stop off and bend me over and ram his cock up my ass.
I get off that way too. I hate that it is Carlos doing it, he is like... I hated him when he was my boss but was also screwing my wife. Now... well, I am just a slut and it's OK I guess. I stroke my cock while he butt fucks me, and usually cum on the sheets before he cums inside my ass.
His spunk slowly oozes out of my ass, down my balls and mixes with my own stuff on the sheets. He likes to see that and always makes me stay still and push his jizz out of my anus while he watches.
Then he goes over to Liz and they go at it for a while, and I watch.
I used to cum more than once, but since I lost my balls, it's maybe once a day.
Since losing my balls, I think I understand a lot more about how girls like sex. I've learned to enjoy using my body, using my ass wrapped around a cock, to pleasure a man.
